It's the only thing I have left. I have nothing else to lose.
My internet. It doesn't hurt anyone. At least, no one around me.
It's so safe to others. It shuts me up. I'll never bother anyone again, as long as I have my internet. I couldn't ask for any more than the world on my finger tips. Isn't that amazing? The whole world of humans living and talking and stories of others, in one device, which connects to other devices, which connects to one, big server, called "The Internet."
Where everyone will accept you. Where everyone judges by personality, not by race. Not by age. Not by looks. Not by religion.
Why can't everyone else be this way? That's why. That's why I cannot stop. Because I love the feeling.
This feeling of no shame, because everyone knows you're a good person. Why should I be in a place where I'll never be accepted, when I can just stay on the internet?
There's so much bad in this world. I would never wish pain on anyone. It's amazing how an environment can affect the average human so significantly.
I never grew up here. I never lived here before. That's all it takes, for everyone to judge you so heavily...
Everything about me just adds up to one, big mistake of God in other people's eyes. Being Korean, not going to church, not socializing.
But it's okay, because I have the internet.